MMMmmmm....dinner

Yesterday we went mini golfing with my dad. We had a lot of fun, and the kids did good. Brandon was, well Brandon, and that was okay. Rick came home from work and we all went to Carrabbas for dinner. It was totally frickin awesome. Brandon was amazing! Kaylin ate WAY TOO MUCH and was suffering the rest of the night. It was an awesome meal. Dad will be stopped by this morning and leaving in the afternoon to go see my grandma. It went by super fast. I will def. miss him, but can't wait until he brings my evil step mother down in the fall. I haven't seen her since I moved to Florida and she has never met Brandon or seen Kaylin since she was three. I REALLY like her and miss her A LOT.

Yea! My Dad is here.

My dad is here. I missed him a lot. We ate a kick ass roast with potatoes and carrots. We visited awhile. Brandon did OKAY, had a few moments of jerkiness, like when he decided to put dirt in magic Grandpa's soda. He also decided to say HELL, which got him some soap in his mouth. I think a lot of it had to do with him being excited and he also had a field trip which over stimulated him. Hopefully tomorrow will go a little smoother. My dad brought me a video camera thingy called flip video. It is really, really cool. You down load it onto the computer and can share videos online, or save on the computer, or burn on a disk. This is really cool since we have the baby coming soon. Tomorrow we are going out to dinner when Rick gets home from work tomorrow.

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Finally, and oh crap!

I finally got through to the state attorney's office. My baby squirrel does not have to go to court and testify, or give a deposition. They made a mistake. Whew! Boy can I breathe a little better now. I still have to go, but that is okay.

In other news...
My step dad was feeling dizzy at work and having elevated blood pressure. My mom made him go to the doctor, and this time it was good that she did. They did and EKG and it came back abnormal so they made him do the stress test. The stress test came back abnormal too. They did some nuclear studies and found out that he had a heart attack and has some scarring/damage to his heart. Friday they go and see the cardiologist and see what's next.

Breastfeeding class and some complaining

Tonight I somehow talked Rick into going to my breastfeeding class. I am proud to say that he behaved himself. We learned a lot, but it also left a lot of decisions to be made. One of them is how long do I do it for, and how will I handle pumping at work if I choose to do so after my maternity leave. I guess we will play wait and see. There are a lot of factors that influence this big decision. Kaylin and Brandon went to my moms. Kaylin is horrified that I will be breastfeeding. She calls it booby sucking and states that it is the most unnatural, inhumane, disgusting thing to do. I told her to get over it...

I saw Dr. Gregush today, and everything is going well. I am 29 weeks and 4 days. Noah weighs about 3 lbs 8 oz and looks to be a week ahead in size. My blood pressure was higher than usual, but no one was concerned. Dr. Gregush was also very excited and happy about my cervix. I know you're jealous that my cervix is so awesome.

I've also been irritable about some different things going on in life. I will just make a list;
1. Possible court thing for daughter.
2. State Attorney's office won't call me back (see #1)
3. Pissed at Tori about her sucky attitude and nasty comments
4. Pissed at girls at work about time off issues
5. Annoyed at Rick (as usual) for being lazy and not motivated
6. Not liking the neglected feeling
7. Nervous about baby shower (I don't like to be at the center of things)
8. People aren't RSVP-ing for shower
9. Tori is being a bitch about my shower
10. Mom is being nutty
11. Self esteem has plummeted to an all time low
12. My house if a mess

Just for shit's and giggles I will make a list of good crap;
1. My dad is coming to visit
2. My maternity leave is a few short months away
3. My pregnancy is going well
4. I have two great kids
5. I have a boyfriend who is nice
6. Excited about baby shower
7. Proud that I quit smoking and am sticking to it
8. I have only gained 16 lbs during my pregnancy
9. I have family and friends
10. I have a job to pay my bills
11. I am grateful

Sucky crap.

Well. Those of you who don't know me are not aware of what happened to my family 4 years and two months ago. Those of you who do know, either because we are related, were friends prior, or a very close friend after. Not too many people know the circumstances of what happened and I'm not about to blog that whole mess. It did really, really suck, and it was one of those things you hear about on the news, or some cousins friend, but not to you. It does have to do with my ex husband and why he is in prison. Last Easter he sent me a letter of "confession" and I immediately brought it to the police station and told them what I knew (which was nothing) and told them to leave me out of it. We have just begun to heal and don't need old wounds opened, so leave me alone, we want closure. I haven't heard anything at all. Not until the other day when I get an officer at my door serving me with papers to give a deposition. So somehow I got drug into the shit again. I have to file my deposition with the state attorney's office in May. In my mail this weekend was another letter, telling me to bring my daughter "Megan" in this Thursday to go over some things, and that she has a deposition the same day as I, but earlier. I have several concerns about this. The first and main one being my daughter's name is not Megan. The second, if this request is in fact for my daughter, is dragging her through this shit again. She has given testimony and a deposition in the last case, and has had all this time to heal and work on moving forward. What is bringing it all up again going to do to her? What will it do to her progress, her delicate self esteem, her important healing process? What does this new case have anything to do with us? On top of this I really don't need the stress. I am a very high risk pregnancy and don't need to get myself worked up. I'm getting close to the time frame that I had my other kids and am scared of premature delivery, my high blood pressure getting higher, and getting pre eclampsia again. I'm doing everything I can to stay at work and off bed rest up until I deliver. Will this be the event that causes it all to go down hill? I wasn't stressed out too badly when they said I had to give a deposition, but now I'm really upset about Kaylin being thrown into it. I have to worry about her too. Arghh, bleck.

Kaylin's special day and an update

Friday was Kaylin's special day with momma. We went and painted pottery, have a wonderful lunch at Olive Garden, went to see Race to Witch Mountain, and shopped in the mall. I had a really nice time. I think she appreciated it for like 5 minutes, and that is a record.

I went to my perinatologist today, and all is well. Noah weights 2lbs 7oz and is 13.5 inches long. He is measuring a week ahead of schedule. My blood pressure is doing what it is suppose to. Rick and the kids came this time. I thought they would think it was cool. Brandon thought it was cool that he got to see the babies wiener. Kaylin thought it was cool when he opened his mouth to yawn. That was all they really said about it.

I qualified for an upgrade on my cell phone and after researching and deciding to stay with my current carrier, I got me a new phone coming in the mail. For some stupid reason I am very excited about it. Probably because it's fancy schmancy, and I'm more of a practical kinda girl.

I am frustrated with some stuff at home, feeling a bit neglected, feeling the time crunch, feeling the stress of a new baby to name a few things. I don't want to get into details, I will spare you all the whining about my pretty okay relationship. Things could be a lot worse. I knew what Rick was like going into this, and back then I chose to manage, so I will continue to do just that, manage. I don't expect him to change, or some sort of personality changing miracle. I will take the friendship, and security that I have, and not bitch about the lack of well affection/attention/sensitivity. He doesn't cheat, lie, drink at the bar, he has a good sense of humor, he's really good with the kids, loves animals, does not have a temper and has a kind heart. So I will shut the hell up and be grateful for him.

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